..... I dreamt violent dreams last night and again early this morning, and I cannot understand why......

..... there are themes that run through them all that seem to tie them bindingly together.... but remembering back upon them during the early morning doesn't seem to pan them fully-out as the crisp light of day dawns.... but yet, they were.... and they are.....

.... I dreamed of the racked billiards balls being broken by a powerful breaker...... that 'crack' that you hear when everything explodes around you and chaos ensues......violence, pandemonium, misdirection, terror, anger, lustful action & reaction....... but even then, there was a certain calm that I felt when I sat upright in bed - sweating......

...... I've had that dream a hundred times before......

..... I got up and found myself a glass of water, checked the clock, and burrowed back under the covers...... and was asleep in five minutes.....

... the next two hours were filled with the strange, half-asleep dreams that woke me every ten to twenty minutes...... and at 7:15, I finally abandoned any thoughts of sleep and rose to greet the day....... cold, dreach, and misty..

...... but I awoke tired, angry, sad, and confused..... how is one supposed to function after a night spent dreaming like that?...... and why does a mind work in such ways in the quiet, pre-dawn hours?....... sure, I have been to scary places, but how do you reconcile that with what you wake up to?..... calm quiet, peaceful?....... but hey, check this out.......

..... if you sit on your floor with your legs out in front of you and raise your knees up so that they are nearly level with your pectoral muscles, lay your right arm forward across your knee...... so that the upturned elbow joint creates a fulcrum against your bent leg (at the knee)...... then reach out and press your wrist downwards with your other hand....... feel the pressure?...... feel the tightness of a bend that was never meant to bend?....... that is what I dreamed of this morning..... and it scares me every time that I think about it...... and I have no idea why that dream scares me so much.......

by Eric on February 14, 2008 | Bullshit (8) | TrackBack (0) | Psycho Rants
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I kind of understand that feeling…I broke somebody’s finger once, because I applied pressure to it and bent it in a way that fingers are not supposed to bend, and I felt thoroughly skeeved by it, knowing full well what a human being’s limitations are, and then crossing it.

Nightmares: I have them every now and then. The last one was a little less than a week ago, about these horrible thousand-plus year-old immortal half-human / half-werewolves. But I think I’d rather have dreams — good, bad, or WTF — than not have them at all. They fascinate me.

I hope you had some restful shluffy last night.

(For what it’s worth, not that this would give you any consolation, whatsoever, but I just woke up from a nightmare that was about the worst I’d ever had…ugh.)

Bullshitted by Erica on February 15, 2008 07:55 AM

When I was a kid I dreamed of tornados. Don't know why. My mother was terrified of storms. Maybe I got it from her. I'd see them coming toward me and I'd try to run away but regardless of where I'd run they'd follow me. The faster I tried to run it seemed the slower I moved as that huge black swirling maelstrom bore down on me...then I'd wake up. I had those dreams for years. As an adult, I've been through two tornados and dodged three more and I don't have those dreams anymore. Maybe they went away because the subconscious fear was replaced by reality. I don't know. Funny how the mind works.

Bullshitted by Tbird on February 15, 2008 02:36 PM

Come to think of it...i had a freaky flood dream last night. It would probably help if we didn't read about sociopathic smokers.

Bullshitted by Jay- the friendly neighborhood piper on February 15, 2008 03:14 PM

When I have nightmares, or sometimes even just unsettling dreams, I try to realize that I am dreaming, and then conciously either wake up, or change my dream. Yes you can do that while dreaming, it usually takes some practice. Reminding yourself, each night as you lay in your bed before sleep, that this is what you will do in the event of a bad dream, usually works within a week or two, and continuing to practice it keeps it working when you need it. Once you start to get the knack of it you can actually chnage any dream you have both good or bad, so you can opractice on good dreams. It does not always work, but it is a big help.

As for most dreams, all I can say about them is that they are mind farts. Someone quasi famous once described them that way, and I agree for the msot part.

Sleep ever so tight, without a nary fright, all through the long night, until on the morn from dreams you alight.

All the best,
Glenn B

Bullshitted by Glenn B on February 15, 2008 04:44 PM

look heah, that monster break ain't nothin' to worry about but if the sumbitch is sinking both the nine and the five on that break and you are playin' some five and ten you had better either wake up or go see a shrink!

Bullshitted by GUYK on February 15, 2008 06:10 PM

Been dreaming more lately, after 4:00 AM and remember most of them. They're not bad. One recurring one I've had for years is that I'm about to graduate from college and suddenly remember a class I never attended. I hear that's pretty common.

Bullshitted by Cappy on February 15, 2008 07:33 PM

I haven't remembered a dream in a long time... years, actually. I miss them.

Bullshitted by Jean on February 15, 2008 09:28 PM

Dreams are windows into the deepest recesses of our beings. If so, you need help, my man. Medz, white coats, or perhaps, better Scotch...

Bullshitted by Winston on February 16, 2008 08:57 AM