Bravery...

... Michele of Letters from New York City has asked a question... she seems interested in hearing tales of a few select men's first loves... I don't blame her one bit... stories of love intrigue us.. they inspire us... hardwired into your minds, we seek out these stories... tales of love lost... love found... eternal love.. and love left unreturned... it doesn't matter what the flavor is, we are hooked on it... we need those stories..

.. having the capacity to bare your soul to another human being and truly love - for whatever period of time - is the most beautiful thing to behold..

... last night I watched "Shadowlands", and it crushed me.. it threw my heart to the ground, and twisted it underfoot like a cigarette butt.... the story of a C.S. Lewis falling in love with a beautiful American poet who slowly died of cancer... I felt it...it resonated in me... I watched my Father die the same way... slowly... drop by drop until he was no more... I simply cannot imagine what it would feel like to lose a spouse that way... at the end of that movie, I wept... Love, people... no matter what anyone tells you, it will end in pain...

... the pain may be caused by your lover jilting you... finding out she's banging the milkman every Tuesday... or, it might be from the fact that you simply love her more than she loves you... but even under the most perfect circumstances, love will bring you pain... you may be married 75 years to the most wonderful woman on the planet... who loves you more than the air she breathes... but one day... she is going to die... through no fault of her own.. she'll get called away.. leaving you alone and still in love... it is inescapable... to love someone is to call down heaven's fury... it will always end in pain... sure, it might be bliss for an hour... a day... a year... or 50... but it will end in the same way... pain...

... here is the key... when you love someone, you bond with them in a way that is deeper than any canyon.. you surrender your self to them... many of you know what I am talking about... if you don't, then you have never truly loved... the thing is, to feel that bliss, comfort, and joy of loving, you must also accept that eventually you will suffer the greatest pain of your life.. either when she leaves... or dies... or when you are on YOUR deathbed preparing to leave HER.. not wanting to let her go.. fighting to stay alive for one more breath, just to see her face... one more time...

... loving someone is an act of unparalleled bravery... and that is a fact, children...

... as for my "first love" story?... I am sorry, Michele... but that is a post for another day.. I will tell you this, though... I know that I have loved... and that I do love.... and that I will continue to love... even though I know I will get hurt...

by Eric on February 21, 2005 | Bullshit (8) | SWG Stories
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Bullshit So Far

I have spent way too much time thinking about the very thing... in particular... yesterday.

Bullshitted by Boudicca on February 21, 2005 04:39 PM

Okay, you talked me out of it. I don't love you anymore. (:D!)

Bullshitted by Key on February 21, 2005 05:17 PM

.. dangit...

Bullshitted by Eric on February 21, 2005 05:20 PM

It is so nice when you find that special some one to annoy for the rest of their natural born life..........
;)

Bullshitted by Maeve on February 21, 2005 11:29 PM

Maeve..so funny...I tease my hubby all the time..I'd never leave his ass...I'd hate for him to go out and maybe find some happines..hahaha..

Bullshitted by Sandy on February 22, 2005 03:15 AM

Sandy, I tell my Steve that ALL the time!
Muh ha ha ha ha haaaaa

Bullshitted by Maeve on February 22, 2005 09:43 AM

Call me evil, call me a coward, but I *really* want to die first. I just don't want to have to face a world that doesn't have Beloved Wife in it.

Bullshitted by Harvey on February 22, 2005 01:24 PM

Beautiful post, one of my favorites. Reminds me of something I posted recently.

Bullshitted by Donna on February 22, 2005 02:50 PM